Ahhhhh...

MMM. I am a little depressed. I realized in math today that every single one of my friends has done at least one thing to piss me off and create drama, And so in conclusion, I've decided to branch out and retouch with my friends of last year, make new friends, and get rid of my best friends. Why? Because I don't believe in best friends anymore. Here is a list:

TRUE FRIENDS:
Lauren
Sid
Molly
Aubree
Melissa--Except i only see her once a week, so she's never really done anything BAD.

FAKE FRIENDS:
Dana
Natalie

UNSURE:
Sam
Jamie
Sarah

PEOPLE WHO AREN'T MY BEST FRIENDS OR USED TO BE, OR LOST TOUCH WITH, BUT I STILL LIKE THEM:
Jamie Davis
Ivy
Suness
Niki
Tori
Kelsey
Britt
Shayna

And that pretty much sums it up.
I definetly have issues with Dana, I sit next to her in English ,and generally we're pretty nice to each other and sutff. But I heard from Kelsey that she's been talking behind my back about what i wear and (how fat I am??) And then I remember what Nicole DId to me, she's such a bitch and I'm totally mad that Sam turned both Dana and Nicole against me. And the thing is, Sam has some sort of power to conrol everyone like Jamie and Dana. like Jamie claims that we bonded when SAm and I were in the fight, and that she's over sam and doesn't consider them good friends anymore and that Sam is bitching to her, but them she goes all bestie with sam on me! And Dana is nice to me, butin front of sam, she'll cross me.

And the other thing is, Sam has decided to forgive me, but DANA AND NICOLE STILL HATE ME!!!! AND WTF DID I DO TO THEM? NOTHING!!!!! (except for bringing the bag im using to school when i had it first but nicole brought it first for a lower price. and now she's not bringing that bag anymore, so idk what her problem is. She hates me. and im okay with that because she was never nicce to me in the first place, but whatever.) BUt for Dana to be fake for me, and pretend to be there for me last year when i practically cried everyday for amonth, that's insane.

OMG. I just figured out what my problem is. I let people in too close, and when they turn on me, it kills me and i go in to trama mode. I think what I have to do is isolate myself and give up on friends, because then they can't do anything to piss you off.